I love the LORD, for he heard my voice; he heard my cry for mercy. Because he turned his ear to me, I will call on him as long as I live. The cords of death entangled me, the anguish of the grave came upon me; I was overcome by trouble and sorrow. Then I called on the name of the LORD: “O LORD, save me!” The LORD is gracious and righteous; our God is full of compassion. The LORD protects the simplehearted; when I was in great need, he saved me. Be at rest once more, O my soul, for the LORD has been good to you. Psalm 116:1-7
This Valentine’s Day, I think about how sad I am that I will not be sharing it with my beloved. There will be no flowers, no candy, no card. There will be no romantic dinner or endearing talk. There will be no hand-in-hand walks or loving kisses. And this hurts my heart.
But then I call on Your Name and nothing is the same. I crawl up into Your loving arms and feel my heart begin to heal and my soul begin to soar. I feel You pour out Your grace on me. I am warmed by Your words and strengthened by Your promises. I am touched and changed and made whole again. The heart that was broken and cast aside becomes a heart filled with Your love; a heart that shines with Your light; a heart that is filled to overflowing.
How can I ever repay Your goodness to me? When I was stumbling in the dark, trying to find my way, You sent a light to my path. When I was angry and bitter, You cleansed my soul. When I felt that I could never forgive, You forgave me. When I took a detour road, You gently led me back. When I fell in my stand, You lifted me up and told me to lean on You. And when I could not take another step, You gently carried me until I was strong enough once again to walk on my own. Oh, how I love You.
Jesus, You have been the best spouse to me. When I was afraid of what my future held, You told me, “You will not have to fight this battle. Take up your positions; stand firm and see the deliverance the LORD will give you, O Judah and Jerusalem. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. Go out to face them tomorrow, and the LORD will be with you.” 2 Chronicles 20:17
When I was worried about how I was going to live, You said, “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? …But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.” Matthew 6:25;33-34
When I was feeling discouraged and worthless, You told me, “Are not five sparrows sold for two pennies? Yet not one of them is forgotten by God. Indeed, the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Don’t be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows.” Luke 12:6-7
When I was facing a difficult circumstance that I didn’t think I could face You said, “When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze.” Isaiah 43:2
When I wanted to give up You told me, Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. Galatians 6:9
And, Jesus, remember that time when I said that I could never forgive what had been done to me? That’s when you gave me Mark 11:25. “And when you stand praying, if you hold anything against anyone, forgive him, so that your Father in heaven may forgive you your sins.”
And the time when I said it was impossible and You told me in Luke 1:37, “For nothing is impossible with God.”
Or how about that time when I said his heart is just too hard? That’s when You told me, “I will give them an undivided heart and put a new spirit in them; I will remove from them their heart of stone and give them a heart of flesh.” Ezekiel 11:19
Jesus, thank You for being my Wonderful Counselor and Great Physician. Thank You for not giving up on me or on my spouse. Thank You for leaving the ninety-nine to go after Your lost sheep. Thank You for helping me to see my spouse as You do, a child of the King. I am grateful for Your hand in my life and I rejoice in Your present protection and future guidance. I am thankful for Your provision and the hope that You give me.
Oh, and one more thing, Jesus. Thank You for helping me to love again. As You told us in 1 John 4:19, We love because he first loved us. Thank You for loving me.
Kim in Nebraska
Rejoice Marriage Ministries