That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong. 2 Corinthians 12:10
God had given me the idea months ago to write a devotional. I did not feel capable of doing so. The Lord would remind me that it would not be in my strength but rather He would guide me. I continued to be disobedient until…
Moses said to the LORD, “Pardon your servant, LORD. I have never been eloquent, neither in the past nor since you have spoken to your servant. I am slow of speech and tongue.” The LORD said to him, “Who gave human beings their mouths? Who makes them deaf or mute? Who gives them sight or makes them blind? Is it not I, the LORD?” Exodus 4:10-11
Last night after finding out that an OW exists in my husband’s life and that my young child met her and her son for the first time, I was devastated. Praying to the Lord and pouring out my heart and soul for the Lord to console, He started giving me Bible verses. I started writing them down to what became this, my first devotional. I asked the Lord to take my anger and frustration against the enemy who came to steal, kill and destroy and not towards my husband and the OW.
Sobbing and sitting in my prayer room, staring at my wall that is full of our wedding pictures and Bible verses the Lord has given me during my stand, waiting for God to hug me and speak to me regarding this situation. Not questioning God (I know better after several years standing for my marriage), but yet looking for an answer from the Lord, God asked me “Are you like the 10 spies who I sent to spy on the promised land that I was going to give them, that flows with milk and honey, and were afraid?” The Lord with His love asked me “Is this giant bigger than me?”
We need to see beyond the giant of OW, divorce, indifference, rejection, other children, another marriage, etc. God wants us to trust Him and to understand that this is not the end. He has not finished our story with each giant that comes across our walk with the Lord. He wants us to trust Him like a child trusts his father. Each giant seems to get bigger. Yes, it is so, because our faith should also get bigger as we grow with the Lord.
“But the people who live there are powerful, and the cities are fortified and very large. We even saw descendants of Anak there. The Amalekites live in the Negev; the Hittites, Jebusites and Amorites live in the hill country; and the Canaanites live near the sea and along the Jordan.” Then Caleb silenced the people before Moses and said, “We should go up and take possession of the land, for we can certainly do it.” Numbers 13:28-30
I never thought that during this battle I was going to have the strength to write a devotional to help someone else who really needs this encouragement. That’s the God we serve. He gives us strength and manifests His power during our low moments. Therefore, it’s clear that it is not our strength but His Holy Spirit. God wants to form us like Caleb and Joshua. He wants us to see through those giants. He wants us aligned with what He sees. God can defeat these giants. Every single one of them. Our husbands have defied the Lord because He created family, marriage, and with Him is our covenant.
Let’s look at our situation like Caleb and Joshua. Just like then as God proved Himself to His people, He will also get the glory and honor when our marriages are restored. God wants us to focus on the promises He has given us and not on what the enemy wants us to see. We need to remember that what we see is temporary. God’s promises are eternal.
God is not preparing our blessing; He is preparing us to receive the blessing He already has on hand for us. He wants us to resist the enemy and he will flee.
David said to the Philistine, “You come against me with sword and spear and javelin, but I come against you in the name of the LORD Almighty, the God of the armies of Israel, whom you have defied.” 1 Samuel 17:45
Let’s pray: Lord help us see our situation how You see it and strengthen us to wait on Your timing. Mold us through this process and allow us to accept Your will which is good, perfect and pleasing.
He said: “Listen, King Jehoshaphat and all who live in Judah and Jerusalem! This is what the LORD says to you: ‘Do not be afraid or discouraged because of this vast army. For the battle is not yours, but God’s.’” 2 Chronicles 20:15
Lorena in Oregon
Rejoice Marriage Ministries