Mark 10 Nine


Are you happily married and looking for tips on maintaining a God-honoring marriage? This weekly devotional will give you encouragement for your marriage.

I Know

I know what it’s like to have that little thought come from nowhere that seems so harmless yet brings such a thrill.

I know what it’s like to bring that fantasy back to mind over and over, each time amplifying the scenario.

I know what it’s like to turn off a spouse, hiding instead behind thoughts of that fantasy lifestyle.

I know what it’s like to feel compelled to act on that fantasy, casting aside all reason and responsibility.

I know what it’s like to leave home; it hurts a lot, but I have my fantasy to bring comfort.

I know what it’s like to suddenly realize that fantasy is only a fantasy; it will never bring that imagined happiness, but there’s no way out now.

I know what it’s like to think about going home, but…

I know what it’s like to feel like a foolish adolescent.

I know what it’s like to feel guilty about dumping a family, but plenty of others are also where I am, and they’re not running home.

I know what it’s like to feel empty and scared, but I can’t tell anyone.

I know what it’s like to hear my spouse is standing with God for our dead marriage to be restored. What a joke at that stage, I thought.

I know what it’s like to have nightmares and then feel rattled all the next day. After all, they’re only dreams.

I know what it’s like to know that someone is praying for me.

I know what it’s like to make a move toward home, get scared, and pull away even more.

I know what it’s like to go to church and just know someone told the preacher all about me.

I know what it’s like for a counterfeit fantasy world to be collapsing.

I know what it must be like at home.

I know what it’s like to be pulled like a magnet toward home. Is it God? No, couldn’t be. He’s given up on me a long time ago.

I know what it’s like to hold tightly to the mate that I trashed so badly.

I finally know what it’s like to really cry.

I know what it’s like to be accepted back at home.

I know what it’s like to be forgiven by my Lord and by my spouse…for everything.

I know what it’s like to finally realize that it was God working in my life all that time.

I know what it’s like to be RESTORED to my spouse and to my God.

I don’t know why every prodigal doesn’t short-circuit all that hurt and go home today.

Yes, that will be my prayer.

~ Bob Steinkamp

Returned Prodigal


If you have struggled with the thought of being unfaithful in your marriage, or you are currently engaging in unfaithful activity, we pray that Bob’s words will convict you. There is nothing like the peace that comes from knowing there are no secrets, and you are in a right relationship with the Lord.

You have not gone too far. Take that first step today and admit your struggles to your spouse. Allow the redemptive grace of God to restore what the enemy wants to destroy.

There is hope!

 “So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” Isaiah 41:10

guest
0 Comments
Inline Feedbacks
View all comments

Get Charlyne’s Free Teaching:

The Path To Marriage Restoration​

This teaching is Charlyne’s introduction to “How To Stand & Fight For Your Marriage!” Charlyne’s goal is to teach you, a stander, or someone you know with marriage problems, the path to marriage restoration that she has learned over the past twenty-five years.