Restored and Redeemed

Has your marriage been restored? Restored & Redeemed is a devotional for those in a restored marriage.

Moments of Midnight Prayer

About midnight Paul and Silas were praying and singing hymns to God, and the other prisoners were listening to them.  Acts 16:25 

God is worthy of our praise. He wants to release us from every spiritual prison and set us free in Him. At the beginning of our separation, I would wake up feeling so sick to my stomach and sad. I could barely make it out of bed in the morning. I had to get on my knees as I needed Jesus to move. I was so broken over my situation, mess-ups, the hurt in my marriage, and the failure on both ends. Many nights I would stay up praying, seeking God, confessing sin, writing amend letters, and listening to worship late into the night until I was so tired I fell asleep. God carried me every step of the way. These moments released me from the things of this world and attached me closer to Jesus. These were the moments that freed me more and prepared me for life in restoration.

At midnight I rise to give you thanks for your righteous laws.  Psalm 119:62 

I learned along this journey that effective prayer starts with praise. Many months later into our separation, I would start middle-of-the-night prayers with praise. I had to move a far distance into an apartment without my spouse. I remember praying before moving into this apartment. I prayed the Lord would move me to the best place where our marriage could be restored and block me from any location that would not be best. He eventually led me to a floor plan called “abundance.” Oh, how great Jesus is that He cares about the details of our journeys. This small, beautiful apartment with vaulted ceilings on the fourth floor had two closets where one could be for my spouse and the other for me. The Lord led me to make my spouse’s empty closet a prayer closet. When I settled into that apartment, the Lord would wake me up most nights between midnight and 3 a.m. to pray. I would go to the closet, turn the light on and pray anywhere from 10 minutes to an hour, however I was led that night. It seemed those were the most intimate, crucial times with the Lord.

Then he returned to his disciples and found them sleeping. “Couldn’t you men keep watch with me for one hour?” he asked Peter. “Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak.”  Matthew 26:40-41 

Some nights I was so, so tired. But I knew my marriage and relationship with the Lord depended on it. Most nights, I got up to pray. Other nights the Lord was gracious to give me sleep through the night when I needed it. God is so faithful and gave me everything I needed. He led me every step of the way until my spouse came home and moved his belongings into that closet.

“At midnight the cry rang out: ‘Here’s the bridegroom! Come out to meet him!’”  Matthew 25:6 

After my spouse came home, I found a new place of prayer on the side of our bed or in the bathroom if it was late at night. Many mornings I would wake up early and go to the church to pray. This posture of prayer continued. Prayer has been essential to walking out restoration, continuing to heal, and deal with things that needed to be resolved. Prayer has helped me forgive my spouse and continue to seek forgiveness from God for my sin. Prayer has helped us stay on the path of restoration and protected us from unnecessary detours.

Though I have had nights where I should have woken up to pray and didn’t, God in His graciousness has redirected me and again has given me what I need. Through a restoration pregnancy and the birth of our son, who is now two, He still wakes me up in the early hours of the morning to pray, and my life and marriage still depend on it. He wants to take us from glory to glory and victory to victory. In my own life and walk with the Lord, I cannot do this without constant communion with my Savior. The Lord has gifted us with many blessings and miracles, but they have been wrought through trial, tears, and growing intimacy with Him. Today, being restored several years now, I need Him as much as I did then. There are new trials and challenges but all for His glory and making Him known. I’m still a sinner in need of a Savior and until then, I will continue to seek Him even if it means a midnight moment that will make all the difference for what lies ahead.

But thanks be to God! He gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.  1 Corinthians 15:57 

God bless,

Mary Lisa in California

You can hear more about Mary Lisa and John Thomas’ restoration story on episode 50 of the Fight for Your Marriage Podcast.

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Lizabeth
Lizabeth
1 month ago

Hi , I’m encouraged by your post today. I’m not yet married however I believe God wants me to do as you have done. I have missed my times of prayer and have been bothered by it as well. Like yourself I find God encouraging me to keep at it. Thank you for sharing and God bless you.

Angelina
Angelina
26 days ago

Love what you wrote! I am going through a similar situation and I found God through this desert. I know my husband is coming back home and our first born is on his way in the name of Jesus Christ. And let me tell you…God wakes me up every night at 2 am to pray and I do it! I love him I love Jesus!

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